So I got a letter today from KSU about my acceptance into the nursing program starting in January. It said I had been placed on the waiting/standby list for the Jasper campus (38 miles from our house as opposed to 10 miles from the main campus). What does this mean? It means I could be placed if someone drops out of the program anywhere from October 1st - January 5th (when the semester starts). So more waiting in my life. Awesome.
I had a variety of things running through my mind this afternoon as I processed the letter. How am I going to deal with this? Why can't just 1 thing go my way? Do I have to wait on everything? The typical feel sorry for yourself thoughts...then there were other thoughts like it could be worse. Your family and friends are healthy. You live in a free country. You have a job and house, etc. etc. Then another nagging thought keep creeping in Is this another "reminder" from God that he can handle it, that he's in control. I feel like things keep piling up, and that Josh and I keep trying to handle them on our own. I don't know why I'm so stubborn. But anyway, I pulled out this daily devotional book that a dear friend had given me (that I had gotten out of the habit of reading daily) and this was yesterdays little devotional:
You will not find MY peace by engaging in excessive planning: attempting to control what will happen to you in the future. That is a commonly practiced form of unbelief. When your mind spins with multiple plans, peace may sometimes seem to be within your grasp; yet it always eludes you. Just when you think you have prepared for all possibilities, something unexpected pops up and throws things into confusion.
I did not design the human mind to figure out the future. That is beyond your capability. I crafted your mind for continual communication with Me. Bring Me all your needs, your hopes and fears. Commit everything into My care. Turn from the path of planning to the path of Peace.
I Peter 5:6-7 Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
Proverbs 16:9 In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.
Psalm 37:5 Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this.
Please pray that Josh and I will put our trust (not just in words but in action) in God; and allow him to direct our steps.
8 comments:
Love you Summer and Josh. I'm praying God will just hold you both in his loving arms. ma
I love you,Summer!! The kids do too! Can't wait for you to get Bryce's letter.
Hang in there girl. You are not alone; we all are guilty of the same thing in one way or another. It is hard to "give up" the control, but when you do, there is peace.
Love ya!
I love you and I am praying for you and Josh. That devo book is so good. I am enjoying it too. Love MOM
As I read this I went from thinking, "Good Lord, when is she going to catch a break?!" to "Wow... God's doing something here." I love you and continue to pray God's exquisite timing in your life. It's going to be good --- all good.
God used this for me too. thanks summer and I am sorry to hear about nursing school. but our God must have a purpose...I don't really get Him right now either but those verses spoke to my heart.
Ditto to Chesed. LOVE YOU ma
I have been out of the blogging world this past week & I just read this! Im so sorry Summer! I want you guys to catch a break so badly. I ditto everyone else's comments. In my prayers always - love you!!
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