Wednesday, April 16, 2008
2 years....
Today marks 2 years that Josh and I have been trying to do what comes naturally to most people. You know I can't really say what emotions I am feeling....probably the biggest one is indifference. I am tired of caring, hoping, praying that it happens this month or at all. I am not really sure why I am blogging about this, I should be writing this in a private journal not something for everyone to read but I talked to a good friend, who I had lost touch with that has gone through this and she said sometimes you just have to rely on other peoples hope because you have nothing left. That is how I am feeling today, I am going to have to go on your hope/faith or whatever this month because I have nothing left...everywhere around me there are pregnant people. I was playing tennis today and the tennis courts are right by the playground and there are 2 moms out there with their kids and both are pregnant and not for the first time...I am like are you kidding me? Please make it a little more blatant, satan! I know I am not pregnant you don't have to throw it in my face.
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I will never lose faith! I can't imagine how you must feel today. I love you & I am looking forward to seeing you tomorrow!
I LOVE YOU, Summer. I have faith that God is doing GREAT things in and through you!!! We are praying that you will continue to have power to stomp down Satan. LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!
Oh Summer, I am so sorry you are hurting so badly. I know God has a plan for you and Josh. We do not know what that plan is but I know it is to prosper and not to harm, plans to give you hope and a future. Lean on Him and others as well. Remember two are better than one, though one may be overpowered, two can defend together. A cord of three strands can not quickly be broken. I love you. MOM
Satan is a big bully! Don't let him get to you (easier said than done, huh?) You are always in my thoughts and prayers! We'll get through this! Love you!
Hope it helps to know that you are in our prayers. God is good and won't let Satan win! He will work wonderful things through you and Josh!! Keep praying...I promise it helps!
It's Tough! Really Tough! And it's ok to feel the way you feel. We are all going to keep hoping and praying for you. God knows when we are angry or disappointed even with HIM and I have learned it's ok. He can take it and He never leaves me or forsakes me even when I feel abandoned. God Today give Summer and extra portion of your Grace and Love. I love you, Summer!
We are all standing for you, Summer! In hope, in love, in faith, in trust that God is going to give you the desire of your heart! I love you and I truly believe that it is going to happen for you. I'm here...
been there. felt it. i hated not liking other women just because they had a bump but it happened. i didn't like feeling that way and maybe you are like that maybe not. but i am still hoping and praying. i am praying these verses for you: Luke 18:1-8. it may seem strange but i am going to keep "bothering" God on your behalf. because if an unjust judge can answer a persisten widows request, surely our loving Heavenly Father will answer you and I! much love and can't wait to see you tomorrow!
Screw Satan! He's just irritated b/c he knows that God has BIG things in store for you two. Seriously, try not to pay any attention to the things he puts before your eyes -- you are a very strong person, even if you don't see it in yourself at this time. Take a look at Ps 145, specifically vs 17-20....good stuff. xoxo
I'll be hoping for you. And praying for you too. Things always happen when you're in the depths of despair or when you least expect them...
--Lindz
I'm thinking of you and feeling some of the same stuff you are feeling...try to hang in there, and yes, we will all keep hoping for you!
LOVE YOU Summer, ma
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